balls

life is a risk... if you wanna live it then you'd have to take it

kids

sarap talaga kasama mga bata kase hindi mo na kailangan maging ibang tao sa kanila... tatanggapin ka nila maging sino ka man... it relieves my fear of rejection kapag kasama ko sila

mabababaw ang kaligayahan... mabenta ka pag korni ka
masarap kaasaran
madaling utuen
enthusiastic
sarap kakuwentuhan kase they tell stories with brightness
ok lang na magalet ka sa kanila... mas matanda ka e
you can sing in front of them
mahilig silang maglaro
appreciative... they're not hard to please
pag sinuntok ka... di ka masasaktan
you can make funny faces in front of them

they really are precious and you can't take them for granted... naluha ako bigla

"i am not emo, i just cry a lot" - T-shirt ni Coco (-_-')

undas

hirap gawen ang mga bagay na di mo naman hilig gawen... e pano pa kung wala ka namang hilig gawen e di lahat na lang ng bagay mahirap gawen... lagot

i am more worried than inspired with the things that have been happening lately... somebody save me... Lord save me...

nakakatakot... i sure miss those days na sa aswang at multo lang ako natatakot... welcome to reality get ready for the real world baby

acquaintance... no touch

its good to have acquaintances... cos you'll only talk about the good stuff and you'll never get any attachments...

you say hi and then you say goodbye, happy days... you both leave with good trails of memories of one another... good times good times

if you go beyond acquaintances then it gets complicated, at least for me and for those people who are not too friendly, once you go beyond acquaintances you become attached... its a risk... and i don't like taking risks cos i'm mr. play it safe... maybe that's why i'm feeling like hell right now because i feel like i know a lot of people but i don't feel like they know me at all... cos i've only been telling them about the good stuff... i think they knew that i am mr. brightside but actually i'm mr. darkside... sometimes i don't even know myself cos i deny it... well it sucks to be me

its good to talk about the bad stuff cos you get to know the other side of the person... you get to laugh about each other's mistake... i don't talk about the bad stuff... not to you or to anyone else... cos i don't like us talking about me... but i do want to get heard... who doesn't?

there are lots of listeners but only a few can be considered as good listeners... in my life, i could count them only by fingers... i am thankful... i wish i could talk to you people often

"And the moral of that story is, if there is one, never ever ever ever underestimate the power of 'I'd like that' haha..." - John Mayer

mr. anxiety

most of the time i feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear - Incubus

motherf*ckin sh*t happens... gusto kong sumigaw... gusto kong umiyak... yup i am weak like i've always been... i feel sorry for myself... pare patawad... potsa eto nanaman ako... sana pede na lang sumabog

tell me what it means to be happy... i've lost that a long time ago... F*Ck! talaga... always keep the enthusiasm alive pre... so hard to please, SH*t!... still hanging on to little bits of precious happy moments... salamat mga kapamilya... parang droga and i wish i cud keep them forever

yeah, maybe i haven't been trusting others much, cos i haven't been trusting myself either, shet?

sarap mag-bike, it makes me feel alive, makes me feel like i'm in the present... wala ka nang iba pang iisipen kundi ikaw at ang daan... kailangan umiwas sa mga rumaragasang sasakayan kase gusto mo pang mabuhay... gusto ko pa nga ba? baka, nagttype pa ren ako e... salamat nga pala sa Mama ni Manny Villar kase me tinatambayan akong tindahan dun sa me BF... pit stop bago umarangkada ule... salamat sa bike nameng pang-rough road... " come to a far away place, and rest for a while..."

Salamat sa'yo pre kase anjan ka paren kahit ipinagkakalunlo na kita (whatever that means astig lang pakinggan)... Salamat din sa Iyo kase alam kong kahit anong mangyare nanjan ka pa ren... you're just one prayer away... laban pre

I am paralyzed... petrified... by all these motherf*ckin anxieties... i dare myself to move... kill them all madafaking bastards...

i need someone to shed me some light... tell me that's its going to be alright... hug me tight...
i also pray that i may learn to believe and to trust myself and others... i am so f*ckin hard to please... hindi na nakuntento... waahahahay

Lord? Pa? Tito? Nasty Jo? Salamat senyo mga guidance counselor ko sana nanjan keo lage kailangan ko talaga ng guidance... hanggang ngayon isip bata pa ren...tsk

malapet na ko makapagtapos (hinihiling ko)... handa na nga ba ako? Lagi na lang ba akong takot?

"wanna die!" - My Sassy Girl, Korean version

iba na to

No I'm not the man I used to be lately,
See you met me at an interesting time.
And If my past is any sign of your future,
You should be warned before i let you inside.

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you.

I will beg my way into your garden,
Then I'll break my way out when it rains,
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)

Who do you love?
Girl I see through, through your love.
Who do you love?
Me or the thought of me?
Me or the thought of me?

I don't trust myself with lovin you.


-John Mayer, "I don't trust myself (with loving you)"