10 Am:
isangdaang piso para pang-ambag sa pag-bake ng cookies pero tulog pa si joanne...sumakay ako ng bike ni meg...napakainit...ansagwa ng cap ko, hindi bagay sa aken...nagdadalawang-isip kung maliligo na ba o hindi kase me kausap si papa na insurance seller...
11Am:
artwork...nagfit ako ng tee-shirt...ansagwa ng itsura ko a...mukang stressed...anak ng!...me itim pang nakapalibot sa bibig ko..."tough one"..."rock absolutely"..."legendary master of martial arts"...samurai..."how's my driving"...mini-skirt..."whoa!" dalawang bundok...
bumile si papa ng bagong patungan ng t.v.... me tama yung set...badtrip...sayang oras...sayang isang oras...sayang pera...kausap pa nung salesman tatay ko...matinong usapan na igagawa ng tv (di ko alam yung pangalan...) tapos ganun lang...me sira rin...anak ng!
tanga ako alam ko...pde namang hindi pero nagpapakatanga pa rin ako...pano kung hindi ako nagpakatanga...magiging bato ba ako
6Pm:
nakakagulat...dumating nanaman sa bahay si joanne ng biglaan...kakahiya sa kanya kase nagpunta pa sa amin galing angela, dala niya yung aso niya...ako na sana mag-aabot ng ambag ko sa pag-bake ng cookies kaso andito na siya e...hindi ko alam kung paano ako mag-aact sa harap niya at sa harap ng pamilya ko...naiilang ako na dumating siya sa bahay...baka iniisip niya na ikinahihiya ko siya...ang hirap kase...bagong kilala lang tapos babae pa...nakaw!...pambihira...bibigyan niya kame ng baked cookies...taste test para sa ibebenta ng koro na cookies...sabi ko ako na kukuha...nahihiya ako sa kanya...sana naging makahiya na lang ako...dun ako magaling...pero ayun dumating sila, kasama si kuya dekdek...hinatiran kame ng baked peanut cookie with peanut, oatmeal, choco chip, plastic container with green lid
12Am:
parang ayoko na mag-dota...ambano e...gusto ko maglabas ng galit...ambano e...counter na lang!...ambano e..."di naman maglalaro ng counter 'yang mga 'yan e"...ayoko mag DarkRO...hindi ko trip ang DarkRO...yung mga trip nila hindi ko talaga trip din... ano nga ba trip ko?... ano nga ba gusto ko?... bakit tahimik na naman ako kanina habang nagkukuwentuhan sila tungkol sa DarkRO...bakit parang di ata ako marunong makibagay?... karamihan sa tawa ko peke...hindi ako magaling sa kahit ano...bakit hindi kame mag-click ng kapatid kong si Coco...si Toto naman ako...o pride chicken ko lang umeeksena
gusto ko makachat si ronah...me itatanong lang ako...kaso hindi siya online...soyong!...itatanong ko lang..."bakit kapag sa chat andami kong masabe sayo pero pag kaharap na kita wala naman akong masabe"
paales na si papa...ginawa ko naman ang best ko...sa tingin ko lahat naman kame...sawa na ako sa pride chicken...kaso adik ako dun...parang droga ang bisa...demonyo, pde bang umales ka na sa buhay ko...Lord pde Kayo na lang sa puso ko...hindi ko na kaya ito...kalaban ko ang sarile ko
seminary?... kanina lang parang gusto ko nang ituloy e... dala lang siguro ng naipon na emosyon...walanjong dota yan... nat -trigger yung frustrations ko...ambano e!
huy asan ka na? magpakita ka naman...
Monday, April 23, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Psychoanalysis
Psychoanalyze Yourself. Answer thefollowing questions with the firstthought that comes to mind. Then readwhich each answer means. (No cheating!)
1. You are not alone. You are walkinginthe woods. Who are you with?-- myself
2. You are walking in the woods. Youseean animal. What kind of animal is it?-- tiger
3. What interaction takes place betweenyou and the animal?-- petting
4. Your dream house. Is it big?-- No.
5. Is your dream house surrounded by afence?-- No.
6. You enter the house. You walk in tothe dining room and see the dining roomtable. What do you see on AND aroundit?-- Fresh foods on the table straight from katay, luto. I see my family around it.
7. You exit the house and a cup is onthe ground, what kind is it?-- Cup of life, Wooden
8. What do you do with the cup?-- I pick it up
9. You walk to the edge of the propertywhere you find yourself standing at theedge of a body of water. What kind ofbody of water is it?-- flowing river
10. How will you cross the water?-- Walk through it
______________________________
1. The person who you are walking inthewoods with is the most important personin your life.
2. The size of the animal isrepresentative of your perception ofhowbig a problem your life is and how itshandled.
3. The severity of the interaction youhave with the animal is representativeof how you deal with your problems.
4. The size of your dream home isrepresentative of the size of yourambition to solve your problems.
5. A lack of a fence is indicative ofanopen personality. People are welcome atall times. The presence of a fenceindicates a closed personality. You'dprefer people not drop by unannounced.
6. If your answer did NOT include food,flowers, or people, then you aregenerally unhappy.
7. The durability of the material thecup is made of is representative of theperceived durability of yourrelationship.
8. Your disposition of the cup isrepresentative of your attitude.
9. The size of the body of water isrepresentative of the size of yoursexual desire.
10. How wet you get in crossing thewater is indicative of the relativeimportance of your sex life.
1. You are not alone. You are walkinginthe woods. Who are you with?-- myself
2. You are walking in the woods. Youseean animal. What kind of animal is it?-- tiger
3. What interaction takes place betweenyou and the animal?-- petting
4. Your dream house. Is it big?-- No.
5. Is your dream house surrounded by afence?-- No.
6. You enter the house. You walk in tothe dining room and see the dining roomtable. What do you see on AND aroundit?-- Fresh foods on the table straight from katay, luto. I see my family around it.
7. You exit the house and a cup is onthe ground, what kind is it?-- Cup of life, Wooden
8. What do you do with the cup?-- I pick it up
9. You walk to the edge of the propertywhere you find yourself standing at theedge of a body of water. What kind ofbody of water is it?-- flowing river
10. How will you cross the water?-- Walk through it
______________________________
1. The person who you are walking inthewoods with is the most important personin your life.
2. The size of the animal isrepresentative of your perception ofhowbig a problem your life is and how itshandled.
3. The severity of the interaction youhave with the animal is representativeof how you deal with your problems.
4. The size of your dream home isrepresentative of the size of yourambition to solve your problems.
5. A lack of a fence is indicative ofanopen personality. People are welcome atall times. The presence of a fenceindicates a closed personality. You'dprefer people not drop by unannounced.
6. If your answer did NOT include food,flowers, or people, then you aregenerally unhappy.
7. The durability of the material thecup is made of is representative of theperceived durability of yourrelationship.
8. Your disposition of the cup isrepresentative of your attitude.
9. The size of the body of water isrepresentative of the size of yoursexual desire.
10. How wet you get in crossing thewater is indicative of the relativeimportance of your sex life.
Tatang! Inang!
Reasons Why I Go Back to Papaya:
1. Fresh foods direct from katay (manok at baboy)
2. Fresh fruits direct from pitas (kaimito, guyabano, bayabas, mangga, etc.)
3. Swimming with carabaos and chocolate sundaes in the river
4. Fresh air running through my nostrils that gives a healing touch
5. Dogs, chickens, roosters, chics, carabaos, bird, cows, pigs, worms, ducks, pabo, (this just came to me, why don't they own a cat)
6. The grand church ( grand! I tell you )
7. My inherited land
8. My grandgrandfather Emilio and my grandgrandmother (o shit! I do not know her name)
Kaw, anong inuuwian mo sa probinsya mo? Hulaan mo kung saan probinsya ko.
1. Fresh foods direct from katay (manok at baboy)
2. Fresh fruits direct from pitas (kaimito, guyabano, bayabas, mangga, etc.)
3. Swimming with carabaos and chocolate sundaes in the river
4. Fresh air running through my nostrils that gives a healing touch
5. Dogs, chickens, roosters, chics, carabaos, bird, cows, pigs, worms, ducks, pabo, (this just came to me, why don't they own a cat)
6. The grand church ( grand! I tell you )
7. My inherited land
8. My grandgrandfather Emilio and my grandgrandmother (o shit! I do not know her name)
Kaw, anong inuuwian mo sa probinsya mo? Hulaan mo kung saan probinsya ko.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
tots
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us, its in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberatedfrom our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Timo Cruz, Coach Carter
"if there's a WILL, there's a WAY"
"to BELIEVE is to SEE..."
"GOD is JUST..."
"God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can and the wisdom to know the difference..."
We were all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us, its in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberatedfrom our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Timo Cruz, Coach Carter
"if there's a WILL, there's a WAY"
"to BELIEVE is to SEE..."
"GOD is JUST..."
"God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can and the wisdom to know the difference..."
wala nang kamias
pinakuha ako ng tatay ko ng kamias kaninang umaga sa bahay ng lolo ko... pagdating ko sa kanila walang tao kundi ang Tita Beth ko at at ang makulit na si Cid... nagpaalam na lang ako kay Tita Beth...pagpunta ko sa likod ng bahay wala nang kamias... anim na piraso lang nakuha kong kamias... gagamiten sana na pampapaasim sa painakuluang tilapia... soyong!
nagsimba ako kaninang 6:30 sa Five Wounds... nakita ko lolo ko...
"A, wala nang bunga 'yon kase wala nang mga insect. Kailiangan kase ng cross-pollination para magbunga 'yun mga flower. Mataas na kase yung bakod na katabi nung Kamias kaya hindi na pinupuntahan ng mga insect..."
Ang lupit talaga ng lolo ko pagdating sa agriculture. Nakapagtapos kase siya ng Agriculture sa pagkakaalam ko. Tubong Nueva Ecija siya.
Kailangan ng Kamias Trees ang Cross-pollination para magbunga kaya wag haharangan ng bakod ang mga Kamias trees
nagsimba ako kaninang 6:30 sa Five Wounds... nakita ko lolo ko...
"A, wala nang bunga 'yon kase wala nang mga insect. Kailiangan kase ng cross-pollination para magbunga 'yun mga flower. Mataas na kase yung bakod na katabi nung Kamias kaya hindi na pinupuntahan ng mga insect..."
Ang lupit talaga ng lolo ko pagdating sa agriculture. Nakapagtapos kase siya ng Agriculture sa pagkakaalam ko. Tubong Nueva Ecija siya.
Kailangan ng Kamias Trees ang Cross-pollination para magbunga kaya wag haharangan ng bakod ang mga Kamias trees
Thursday, March 22, 2007
tae!
According to one nursing student:
"There are two kinds of shit: the aromatic shit and the pungent shit. The aromatic shit is the healthy shit while the pungent shit is the unhealthy shit. I'm tellin' you, you don't want that pungent shit especially when you're off goin' to school."
There you go. That's the shit...
"There are two kinds of shit: the aromatic shit and the pungent shit. The aromatic shit is the healthy shit while the pungent shit is the unhealthy shit. I'm tellin' you, you don't want that pungent shit especially when you're off goin' to school."
There you go. That's the shit...
mahirap maging tamad
napagisip-isip ko na mas mahirap pala maging tamad kaysa maging masipag...
ang katamaran ay isang sakit na mahirap malunasan... kailangang maagapan bago pa ito lumalala...
isama na rin siguro ang tinatawag nilang procrastination at mga pagkahumaling sa mga distraction ng buhay...di ko nagagawa sa tamang oras yung mga dapat kong gawin...tapos nauuwe ako sa wala at mga walang kwentang bagay
pero minsan napagiisip-isip ko rin na nagiging Bisy Backson ako... ayon sa "The Tao of Pooh", ang Bisy Backson ay isang taong laging gustong may ginagawa siya... madalas gusto ko na me ginagawa ako pero wala akong motivation para gawin ang mga bagay na gusto kong gawin...feeling ko walang kwenta yun mga ginagawa ko...
pag marame akong ginagawa hinihiling ko na sana nahihiga na lang ako sa kama at natutulog...pag wala naman akong magawa, para akong sasabog na bulkan at indi mapakali...kakabad3p!
alam ko masipag akong tao...mapursige...tatapusin ang isang bagay hanggang sa matapos ito...minsan naghuhugas ng pinggan, nagtatapon ng basura...nag-aaral ng mabute...bumibile ng bigas
alam ko tamad akong tao...tamad maligo...tamad ayusin ang kama para me maayos na higaan...tamad lumabas ng bahay...tamad magsuklay ng buhok...tamad mag-ahit...tamad maghilamos ng mukha
basta napansin ko lang na masipag ako sa lahat ng bagay pero tamad ako gawin ang mga simpleng bagay na hindi mo aakalaing katatamaran pa ng isang normal na nilalang
ang katamaran ay isang sakit na mahirap malunasan... kailangang maagapan bago pa ito lumalala...
isama na rin siguro ang tinatawag nilang procrastination at mga pagkahumaling sa mga distraction ng buhay...di ko nagagawa sa tamang oras yung mga dapat kong gawin...tapos nauuwe ako sa wala at mga walang kwentang bagay
pero minsan napagiisip-isip ko rin na nagiging Bisy Backson ako... ayon sa "The Tao of Pooh", ang Bisy Backson ay isang taong laging gustong may ginagawa siya... madalas gusto ko na me ginagawa ako pero wala akong motivation para gawin ang mga bagay na gusto kong gawin...feeling ko walang kwenta yun mga ginagawa ko...
pag marame akong ginagawa hinihiling ko na sana nahihiga na lang ako sa kama at natutulog...pag wala naman akong magawa, para akong sasabog na bulkan at indi mapakali...kakabad3p!
alam ko masipag akong tao...mapursige...tatapusin ang isang bagay hanggang sa matapos ito...minsan naghuhugas ng pinggan, nagtatapon ng basura...nag-aaral ng mabute...bumibile ng bigas
alam ko tamad akong tao...tamad maligo...tamad ayusin ang kama para me maayos na higaan...tamad lumabas ng bahay...tamad magsuklay ng buhok...tamad mag-ahit...tamad maghilamos ng mukha
basta napansin ko lang na masipag ako sa lahat ng bagay pero tamad ako gawin ang mga simpleng bagay na hindi mo aakalaing katatamaran pa ng isang normal na nilalang
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